Autonomy

My desire to return to the UK has been so strong lately that I feel like I need to step back and look at it a bit more closely. There are a few reasons, but one important one is the feeling of absolute independence that I felt in the UK. My first, and only other experience in the UK was doing study abroad for a year, and in that time I was alone and scared and I had no clue what I was doing. At the same time, I knew exactly what I was doing. I was fullfilling a lifetime goal, no matter what it took. I was proving to myself and others just how much I could do by myself and how much I could take care of myself.

I feel like my UK life is totally seperate from my life in America, and I love it. Only two people from my American life visited me in the UK, and only two people from my UK life understand both my American and UK lives. I actually want to keep it that way. I don't want to take people back with me to the UK, I want to fly over by myself and meet up with my old life there, no American strings attached. I feel like the UK belongs to me, and I want to keep it that way.